No.3518
>in college
>late to class one day
>only seat open is next to this short cute girl I've been checking out
>she's 5'4, blonde with pale skin and green eyes, petite and perky
>sit next to her
>she drops her pen and it rolls down the floor
>get up and get it for her
>hand it back with a smile
>eye contact lingers, she smiles back and then looks down meekly
>realize she's quite shy because I've never seen her talk to anyone
>we just sit quietly during class and when class ends, we leave without interacting
>next class, I sit in my usual spot
>she comes to sit next to me despite tons of open seats
>don't say anything or even make eye contact
>we do this for nearly half the semester, I look forward to it every time
>never say anything but feel like ONE DAY I will finally say "hi" and we will start talking
>decide to skip class once and go home early
>get on the bus in front of campus - there is nobody else on it
>go all the way to the back and sit down as the bus idles
>see her get on
>we make eye contact for 0.05 seconds and then I look away quickly
>she comes all the way to the back and sits RIGHT across from me without a word
>bus starts moving - we're basically the only 2 passengers
>I stare out the window with my mind racing
>she is forcing my hand, there is no way I can't talk to her now
>a couple minutes go by which felt like hours, is it too late?
>bus goes under an overpass and we make eye contact through the window reflection
>I quickly look down and then back out the window when the light is back
>realize it's too late
>feel my heart sinking as I realize I'm living through a moment I will regret for the rest of my life
>brain is screaming NOOO SAY SOMETHING FAGGOT!!!!!!!
>can't do it
>my stop comes
>fumble out of the seat awkwardly staring every direction but hers
after this, she never sat near me or looked in my direction ever again
this was 12 years ago
No.3519
Yeah that's how I feel too. There's just nothing. I just waste my time away doing nothing. Feeling nothing. Just like that another day has passed. Another week. Another year. Another decade.
No.3616
literally me